Do it now!

I've been thinking a lot lately about a couple different things and have only now realized that they tie in very closely with each other.

The first is this. If I want to experience different parts of the country there is no better time than now. I can tell myself all sorts of excuses. I can let my fears rule and end up stuck in Indiana forever... another of my fears.

This thought opens up a whole crock pot full of other ideas. I am wary of change and yet I long for it. I dread a lonely future and in the same thought am skittish about committing to a lifetime of togetherness. Fear is a hateful and ugly enemy!

The second process of thought hovering around the corners of my brain is inspired by a new read. I recently picked up the book "The Kite Runner" while killing time in a local Starbucks. Within the first few chapters already my heart was wrenched by the almost palpable anguish dripping from its pages. And still I am compelled to read on, desperate for some redeeming line, something to make it all better. Though I have yet to finish the book the story has sent me scrambling, resolved to not make the same mistakes. There are people in my life who I love dearly and I want them to know it! What does it matter what it means to them. Maybe they don't feel the same way about me... so be it. The point is not how I am received. No, amazingly the universe does not center around me! The thing I want is simply for them to know I love them. I want them to know I've got their back. I want to be there for them. Once again, there is no better time to start being there than now!

And so my mind says, "but I'm afraid" and my heart says "just do it now!"